TETORIS (Slowed + Reverb) - Official Audio Track

How'd you guess it right from the get-go?
Suffering as I wait for a combo
Can I skip this life and stay off the scene?
Don't be so obscene
I don't want your thoughts or your pity
I can feel bugs crawling inside me
Cope and seethe you psychotic invalid
I already did

Common sense all gone, it's a fist fight
I can't stand my reflection, it's not right
Why is it so hard to win this game?
Better take your aim
How'd you see it right from the get-go?
I should be left behind 'cause you said so
Why do people think healing is easy?
Ta-tada-tada-tada

Lithium can help me be
The machine's full of dopamine
Connect online, socially die
The flashing neon lights control my high
It itches in my brain and I know if I tumble down
They'll play me like I'm 
Te-Te-Te-Teto-Teto
Te-Te-Te-Tetoris

Why did this happen to me? Me? Me?

Put passion off to the side
If it's not productive then there is no point in it 
I believe that I'm never enough
When I think about ending all of it
Throw all my progress away
Making sure to relive all my previous mistakes
I just want to feel something at all
So my thoughts spiral and I raise the stakes

Gullible and a hopeless romantic
One wrong move and I'm already frantic
I don't wanna know, I don't wanna know, I don't wanna know
Ta-tada-tada-tada
Nightmares haunt my subliminal psyche
Every time that I sleep it reminds me
I don't wanna go, I don't wanna go, I just wanna die
Bye-bye

Stare at me, I'll come undone
Play Balatro on stream for fun
A flush of Joker cards exchanged
Drowning in moonshine, numb your mind with shame
Head to the shower
Sit alone with your sins pouring down
Just wanna play some
Te-Te-Te-Teto-Teto
Te-Te-Te-Tetoris

My thoughts say I am to blame, blame, blame

Manic or sad, it's the same
And I fall back to bed rotting on some awful days
I'm supposed to be strong
I can't cope, and I push all my friends so far away
Scrolling and posting
The creative block is the vice that guards all my happiness
But if I speak about it
They'll call me a broken, attention seeking mess

Even if I put in effort
I'm bound to just lose it all if I start again
Then you say that you know how I feel
It's just contingency, I still feel dead
I'm comfortable with the pain
'Cause it's all that I know
It's a feeling I can't shake
Sorry for all the trouble I've caused
I need help from someone, please stop the brakes

Sorry for all the trouble I've caused
I am tired of surviving
Forgive me